11 Feb '08 - 12:06 p.m.
I haven't communicated in anyway to Tara in four days now. The trouble between her and her husband seems to have come to a head over her flirting and I don't want to add to it though I do enjoy it very much.
I wonder if I lost the best barber I ever had?
My wife still talks with her, I think, though I don't ask. I find, with my wife, its better never to show any interest in someone as it will lead to nothing but trouble. I don't push nothing. Though one call I was around for was them two checking dates and schedules to see when they can go out together again. YESSSS!
I miss talking with her, I had two buddies in the Navy that I could talk to like that and I haven't talked to them in a dozen years. Like I've mentioned before, I love my wife, but there are things she just won't discuss, or if we do she'll find a way to hold my past against me some time in the future.
I could see a therapist but that would be for me just sounding off, not for me going to get me fixed and repaired...lol
Anonymous drinking buddies in far away bar does the same, but that can get expensive...sic.
According to my wife, she should be all I ever need in a relationship...ever. But that is not the case, read above....one person can't be all there is to another, it's impossible. She is great for most of my needs, I probably rely and need her more than most men need their own wives but there is something lacking. That is not an excuse for stepping out on her either. It's just a simple fact.
That being said, Im no saint, far from it. I was worried for a bit that I might be manipulating and controlling my wife subconciously. (Remember I used to read her psychology books while sitting on the crapper.), now I see its more her kindof isolating me from the world in subtle ways. That is stopping soon as I figured out a way of bypassing her automatic refusals on anything I suggest. Here it is:
"I'm going out for a couple of drinks, comming?"
See the genius in that? I take out the veto factor on her part! I'm not forcing her to go out, I'm not forcing her to stay home, she can come with me or not. Her choice concers her. Not her choice concerning me. (I watched Ghandi the other night and was impressed how he, by being pasive, forced people to realize their errors.)
Ghandi is my new God, except for the vegetarian bit, yeach!
Sometimes my evil genius scares me. Have a great day everyon, and Ladies, keep writing. I find you both facinating!!!!
